During my 4th Grade in school, my school was closed for a day for an unusual reason. One of my schoolmates in 9th Grade died. He died in a peculiar manner. He was having is dinner and simultaneously watching a comedy show. There was a hilarious scene and this guy laughed and that was his last laugh. Food particles got stuck in his wind pipe and he was gone. Something similar happened to me yesterday, i started gasping for breath, initially(the first few seconds) i didnt realize the seriousness, the moment air stopped filing my lungs, the moment it started yearning desperately for air, i could sense my eyes open wide , my heart pounded desperately, it was as if someone was choking me to death. I knew it shud get alright by a miracle else, i cant wait till i get to a hospital, my brain frantically recollected the demise of my schoolmate, it was trying to find a solution, i started wondering whether the next gasp might be the last one, some part of me started praying desperately, please Lord, heal me, it cant go now, lot to be done yet.

My friends in the room didnt realize the seriousness, coz i was not able to convey to them, my gasps got stronger and stronger as if fighting strongly, miraculuosly i felt some partciles move back into my throught, it spitted it out, still my body has not recovered from the strain and stress it went through those moments. My lungs started panting with the rush of air, i started sweating, my eye lids returned to normal state, my breathing became normal and i had a feeling as if i am reborn, said a small weak prayer of thanx giving and slept with a troubled heart, what if it had happened otherwise !!!!!

All Glory and Praise to God for saving me and holding me near HIS heart.

When my delite friends invited me to come to my friend Elis’s church inaguration function, i really had no clue what part i was going to play. Our Delite team was one of the three teams that were going to lead the worship there. I had no clue about the songs that was to be sung that evening. U wont believe, i ended up having a seperate mike all for myself. For songs that i didnt know, tried to get the rythm and tried filling in, for those i knew, i sang with all of my heart, before the worship started i was asking God, why me, i dont know the songs, i dont deserve to be there but why me, but i told God, God i am not worthy, but u have brought me out of Your will and choice, i surrender myself to You, let Your will come to pass. With those toughts the worship started and all of a sudden Ashely asked me to give my testimony, and he told that i had 1 min. Actually i didnt concentrate on my testimony but i was concentating on that 1 min, i told God that i knew nothing and that HE had to speak, i rushed through the testimony which was least effective, but i know that God’s purpose has come to pass and that He has achieved whatever HE wanted out of my testimony. Now i know God’s call might come any moment, i shud be ready to give my best and i promised God today that the next time when HE calls, i will be prepared. God is teaching me new lessons everday, somedays i tend to get the lesson and somedays i dont get the lesson, thats when God forces HIs way around me to teach a lesson.

All Praise, Glory and Honour to the Lord !!!! Will share my testimony here someday.

It was a hot and dry month of May. I was busy getting ready for my 12th grade. Preparations were in full flow. I was returning back home on my bicycle, a couple of kilometers to reach home. I was crossing a three road junction, all of a sudden something happened. The next thing I remember is, I was in an auto with my friend and we were moving to the hospital. Things that followed are still very vague. The doctor diagnosed and said that it was just a concussion and gave me a sedative and asked me to go home.

Soon word spread around, friends and relatives started visiting me to check on how I was doing. Things were still hazy and my aunts who were all nurses working in government hospitals enquired if I had vomited which I rarely do. They were just checking on whether there was any head injury. Since I didn’t vomit, they said it was okay. The day after the accident one of my aunt visited to checkup on me. She got very curious about my head and she suggested doing a scan. We went to the hospital at 5 pm in the evening. The scan was done and the doctors dropped the bomb.

I have been bleeding all over my brain for the past one and half days and still walking. They told that they had to operate in 30 min and we have to pay 30 grand to start the operation. They followed that bomb with another big one saying I got just 20% chance and they got signatures from my parents acknowledging the same.

Every prayer group which my mother knew was informed about the operation and prayers were offered day and night. The operation that was supposed to be for 45 min dragged on for 3 hours. The operation was a success but I was a loser, they had removed my bifrontal bone. Then the painful recovery process began. The pain was so much that I felt it would be better if I died.

After 3 long months, I joined school. By that time all my mates were well into the 12 portions, in fact they were done with their first round of syllabus completion. I was lost, I didn’t want to study in fact I didn’t want to do anything. By sheer grace of God I cleared my 12th papers with 80% which was more than I hoped for.

Then came along the 2nd 0peration, where the docs crafted another part of my skull to patch up the empty bifrontal area. In the same hospital where the operation was done a Karunya student had been admitted, whom my mother met by chance or rather by the plan of God and he inspired my mom to get me admitted into Karunya.

I resisted that strongly, I didn’t want to stay in hostel. I wanted to stay in my home town (Coimbatore). But my mom compelled me to join Karunya. I was very much into computers and we tried for a Computer Science seat. But the CSE seats were closed when we went. I got only mechanical. I was broken into pieces. But still my mom persisted to join Karunya.

Almost 2 months past after I joined college IT /CSE seats were increased for all the colleges. We tried to get a seat desperately, again my luck ran out. After another week there was news from the admin people that there was a lapse seat which by sheer God’s grace and plan I got it. I felt as if my fortunes are clicking. On my maiden day as a CSE student there was a test conducted and I topped that. I knew I was on a roll.

I was just a church goer and not a true believer. But slowly and steadily the Lord’s hand started working in me, through the various forums in Karunya like the prayer cell, morning counseling, the corporate worships etc I was drawn closer and closer to God. God gave me the grace to complete all my semesters without any arrears.

During my final semester in the month of January, I surprisingly got an interview call from my dream company Infosys for which I haven’t applied. But later came to know that one of our professors Mr. Kumar Charlie Paul, who had collected our resumes, had applied. I had only 3 days to prepare. I gave it a shot and guess what I did the questionnaire well. I was very confident that I will get through. I was so confident that I didn’t any other interview. I was expecting the offer letter in 2 months. Almost 4 months passed I didn’t receive my offer letter. People who appeared after me had received their offer letters.

Final exams were over still no offer letter. I started cursing myself why I didn’t appear for other interviews. Within a week after semester got over appeared for a call center interview, got through and was asked to join with 4 days of the interview. I joined a company called Transworks as a call center executive for Apple Tech Support. I wanted to become a software professional and hence I was not happy with the job. I have the habit of checking my mails regularly and exactly after 4 days of my joining in my new job I got the much awaited Infosys offer. I was thrilled. It was a dream comes true. Things didn’t stop there. God granted me the grace to complete Oracle Certification and another new job at Yahoo SDC in Bangalore. Now I am in Bangalore with a job that I like the most though it is hectic and working for God in my spare time through my fellowship with fellow Karunyans as a group named DELITE.

When I was preparing for my 12th, had a vision and was working to achieve the same. But God had a better and greater vision for me. HIS ways are unexplainable. The prayers of my mom, the prayer group brothers are sisters sustained me pre Karunya and in Karunya and post Karunya along with their prayers of the above mentioned the prayers of the Founders and the WORD of GOD planted in me during the numerous prayer cell gatherings, corporate worships and morning counseling sustains me today by invoking the grace of GOD for every day.

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